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Burning the Candle at Both Ends
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Art-Academy-Users is my Art Academy group! We're devoted to the Nintendo Art Academy games and art created with them!

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LiteraryFanFiction is devoted to fanfiction with deeper meaning and higher quality, and we have a weekly prompt for short fanfics. Most of my short fics are because of this group.

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Liwick-Fc is a Litwick fan group I recently took over. I'd love to see it thrive!

Do you consider the "Hawkeye Scene" that was cut from Captain America: The Winter Soldier to have happened or not? 

70%
7 deviants said Yes, although I won't be upset or surprised if it gets circumvented by information in a later movie about where he was.
30%
3 deviants said I'm not active in this fandom or I haven't seen the film, so I don't have a call to make here.
0%
No deviants said No; they didn't show it and it wasn't even filmed, so sometihng else must have happened.

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A pip pip ta didly do! XD
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I don't think you can do plz icons in shoutboxes dude
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Tyra Plamen
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Hi. I write fanfiction, and occasionally paint in Art Academy.

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Quitting All the Things

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 28, 2014, 3:16 PM
So, you guys may have noticed another semi-unannounced absence from me. If you haven't, don't tell me. My poor, fragile ego, dude.

Originally, it was going to be a much "worse" hiatus than it was. We were having some serious problems here that seem to be mostly alleviated. My living situation still sucks, but now there's one less variable threatening to make it worse. Still, I had planned on being gone for a month or two while we sorted it out. It started to come together almost a month ago, but I was too upset about it all, and about other things, to be involved in dA.

The truth is that no matter how much I scaled back in my previous involvement in dA, it still wasn't enough. I still keep getting overwhelmed, getting behind, and then hiding from dA for weeks because I am ashamed of my failure to do things I volunteered to do for free.

After a long conversation with several of my friends today, I realized a big part of the problem is that I am doing things I paid big bucks to learn to do for free. 

I love fanfiction. I have always been involved in the community, and I made much of trying to foster and support other writers when I was younger. Then I went to school to learn to do that professionally, for children writing more than just fanfiction, in a context where they can be taken seriously. I wanted to take all the problems I saw in the fanfiction community, the elitism and casual dismissal of kids' interests, and attack them at their source: in the school systems.

Which would be great if, you know, I could get a job.

I'm getting paid near minimum wage to do the part of teaching I like the least: the behavior management, the order-enforcing. While I have a lot of rewarding days in that job, I also have a lot of days when I'm cursed at, threatened, mocked, and lied to, to an extent that "real" teachers don't endure. Then I come home, and I give away professional level critique (or do and sit on said critique, for groups that don't allow decline critique) to people I do not know writing about topics I do not care about for free. 

It isn't that I don't enjoy giving criticism. It's that I feel I have to give it, and what do I get out of it? Maybe if I were chasing the spectre of seniorhood it would be different, but I'm not. The pressure of "oh Tyra you have to read this" has gotten to the point where I can hardly read for my friends, and I'm not writing out of guilt for not reading. I have written a few things, but they're all things I can't share, have no intention to share, and that nobody cares about. (and most of them are Carly O related, which, again, nobody cares).

So I need a fresh start here. 

So I've resigned as an admin at my two main groups: LiteraryFanFiction, whose mission I still believe in, but whose day to day work has become toxic to me... and Art-Academy-Users, whose new games I cannot afford to buy. Once I get comfortable, I might be open to helping out at either in a more limited capacity, but for now, I need to just be an ordinary user.

I'm staying on at Liwick-Fc because nothing happens there anyway.

If I owe you anything, forget it. 

In the meantime, I'm just going to try to enjoy this website again. If you've done anything in the last few months you think I might like to see, please comment with it here. I cleared my inbox without looking at deviations. I'll try to be around... but I make no promises with what I"ll be doing with what I'm here.

I'm so sorry. I hope people can forgive me. I hope they still want me around. 

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STOP

DON'T THANK ME
No Thanks Needed by savagebinn .: Read the comments :. Stamp by Beti-Kot Don't thank me Stamp by owleyed-angel

Please don't thank me for llamas, faves, and the like! Thanking people for these things encourages people to do them just for attention, so you'll come to their page and see their work. It's sad that people have made gratitude a liability, but there's nothing to be done.

If you really must show me some kind of gratitude, give me a llama, or engage me in conversation about something you like in the same comment you use to thank me. I am here to make friends, not get pageviews!

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SolarGirlMina Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Student General Artist
Thank you for the FAVE! :D
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MisterClassic Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
I need that "STOP" sign as well. I'm getting sick and tired of the "Thanks for this and that and that~!"
How do you made that?
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DecepticonFlamewar Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I think you have to be a premium member to make the custom boxes on your profile, and I'm not sure, but you might also need to be a premium member to use the thumb codes for those three stamps I have in there. Try fiddling around on your page to see if you can one, make custom boxes, and two, put thumbs in your descriptoin on the profile box!

The actual big black box I got from CypherVisor
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storykeeper03 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hey long time no see, i'm sorry to bother you with this but my friend found some 'ban anime'petition and i think something might not bne right about this so i wanted to ask what you thought of it cause i'm not sure if it was possible or not. here's a link to the journal oujoasuka.deviantart.com/journ… i just want to know if anyone should take action or if it's something to not worry too much about.
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DecepticonFlamewar Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
OK, so, first up, I'm American and I'm certified to teach in America. I don't know a lot about the particular freedom of speech legislation in either Japan or Australia. But...

Banning anime or manga in the US outright is impossible because of the first amendment on free expression. Things that have certain kinds of sexual content can be "banned" because of obscenity laws, but that only covers certain kinds of distribution. You can also keep things off broadcast TV, but you can show almost anything on cable or satellite. But the US isn't relevant here. It's just all I know. 

Australia has much tougher rules on violent and obscene content and fewer protections on free speech than the U.S. because of the way their constitution is set up. I am not qualified to give details beyond that. If you are worried about the availability of things in Australia you need to contact international lawyers or Australian free speech activists for information. If you're worried anime is under attack in its home country of Japan, you need to seek out experts on Japan.

Sorry I couldn't be much help. 
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storykeeper03 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
no thats okay, you've been a big help and i wasn't concerned with it affecting Australia. last time i checked our government isn't concerned so i'm not worried, it's my friends in america that are anime fans that i was concerned about. glad to know it can't be done though ^^ i found the petition but something didn't seem, is George bush still a congressman?

and again sorry to bother you but you seem to know more about this stuff then anyone i know ^^; how have you been?
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DecepticonFlamewar Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Uh, George Bush was the name of two presidents. Neither of them are president now.

And it's no problem. I just wish I could help more. I'm all right. you?
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Adisko Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2014
ty4llama have1back
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Pandachu123 Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much for the Badge.
(One step closer to the Llama Elite Four!!) XD
Anyway, it's an honor to be noticed by a beta tester, and I love your Pokemon art.
It's incredible! I wish my Pokemon pictures were as good, but, as they say, practice makes perfect. I'm not asking for page views; it's just my opinion.
Anyway, sorry about the huge paragraph.
Might I ask if you have a favorite Pokemon? :)
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